Back to Blogging!

Now that I have another website where I can properly reach out to an audience and do some professional writing, my blog will turn back into a personal crib-dairy. I'll still write some interesting stuff in my blog but I won't try to make it interesting or relevant to a general audience. It is just going to be about me, me and me. I basically started blogging to vent out some personal feelings which I felt I needed to express badly. It later grew into something else when I realized that a lot of people were reading it. But now, I'm back to its roots. So, if you don't know who I am, my posts hereafter might not seem that interesting to you, sorry.. :D

Being a gamer, my comeback crib is again about gaming. For long now, I have been both a competitor in and organizer of gaming events. Though most of the organizations that are promoting gaming in India have failed miserably, I crib only about the attitude of the gamers, but not about the organizations. One obvious reason for that is that I don't want to go on record against organizations that are genuinely trying to help. But the other reason is that, gamers are the sole reason for the existence of such an industry, not the organizations. Therefore, it is the gamers who need to get their act together, first. Organizations don't even matter without the gamers.

So, whats wrong with the gamers? Well, as I said long before, they just aren't gamers anymore. Four years back, when I went out of my city to participate in gaming tournaments, I saw so much dedication in the gamers and a mad desire to win. You could really see it from the way they talked, moved about, fought, shouted, screamed and played. I used to think that, we (players from Chennai) could never really be that dedicated and that is why we would never win. I attended WCG in Chennai this week. I saw gamers from all over the country doing what they did best, fight!

But the players from Chennai, they never really put up any fight. The CounterStrike team MakeWay though, did show a lot of spirit. But they couldn't match the players from Mumbai. They were rather confused after their defeat. They couldn't understand why they lost even after almost matching the skill level of the Mumbai players. But I think I know the answer. They weren't desperate enough to win. They discussed for hours together about their match after their defeat. They were extremely upset, but still, they weren't as dedicated as the others.

The worst part is that, I envy their dedication. They were probably more dedicated than what we could have ever been. They cared enough to be upset and to crib about it. It mattered enough for them to be heart-broken. That is hardly comparable to the current DotA scene in Chennai. The DotA teams here have no fight left in them. They don't care anymore about winning and losing. They don't care if they aren't the best team in the city. They don't care even if they couldn't beat their favourite rival even once. Once we lose a match, we are supposed to brainstorm or even fight to figure out what went wrong. But the current attitude is 'Ah! That didn't work. Oh well!'.. It seems pathetic to me. Maybe I'm the only one seeing it this way, but somehow, I really feel sad about it.. Giving up on our dreams is a part of growing up and settling down. But at this age, why have we given up?!! :(